BREATHE
GOD: “I NEED YOU TO ENCOURAGE MY OTHER DAUGHTERS; SHARE YOUR STORY OF BROKENNESS AND HOW YOU ARE ON THE PATH OF WHOLENESS”
ME: “I’M NOT IMPORTANT ENOUGH”
GOD: “IT’S TIME TO START DOING WHAT I GIFTED YOU TO DO; GO DESIGN”
ME: “I’M NOT READY YET”
GOD: “LOVE ON OTHER WIVES DURING THEIR SEASONS OF DOUBT BY TELLING THEM HOW YOU HAVE OVERCOME”
ME: “THEY WON’T LISTEN TO ME; WHO AM I?”
GOD: “IT’S TIME TO BLOG”
ME: “UMMMM YEAH, NO THANK YOU!”
Every moment God said “do,” I just politely explained to Him that I was not equipped for my assignments or His plans… Sounds funny, right?
From the time I was a little girl, I always knew what I wanted to do but didn’t know what it was supposed to look like. How do ministry, interior design, and fashion go together? I chose to wake up every morning and get the paintbrush out. I would paint a picture of styled perfection in my well-thought-out outfits, accessories, coordinating shoes, and a full face of makeup with a painted smile, too, but inside, I was carrying so much emptiness. I wanted to do so many other things with what I believed my gifts were but didn’t know how to quite make it happen. As life presented its own unforeseen challenges, I began to get more still in complacency. At least an expected job should win me the approval of success, or maybe I was just too scared to be that transparent with who I knew God created me to be.
Every time He told me to do anything that was uncomfortable, I would place another hurdle of delay in my path. I would tell myself that since I didn’t have the blueprint or road map for the entire plan, I should respectfully bow out. So I did. I was literally robbing myself of my full potential and the blessings that God had for me!
I had to make a decision. I could just keep existing in life, keep plugging myself into the expected but safe jobs where I would work diligently to make sure everyone was pleased with me, but the reality was I was settling on the fact that I was only being tolerated. Every day, I would show up to work to walk into a door of emptiness, stagnation, and toleration. It can be miserable to have so much inside of you and walk through a door of complacent, settling fear every day. I could dream about what I wanted my life to look like but was too scared to trust God or myself to walk it out.
My other option was to fully surrender my gifts to God so He could fully cultivate His perfect version of me. Matthew 6:25-34 explains how God will provide for us because we are enough. He encourages us to be rooted in our faith in who He is… Knowing that I am a child of God is wonderful and all, but knowing that I am the daughter of a King changes the whole idea of who my Daddy is and what I can accomplish through Him.
I decided to just let go of waiting until it was the right time, where every little detail is Pinterest-worthy and absolutely perfect! It is impossible to learn and grow if I refuse to move forward in my imperfection and commit to allowing God to perfect His daughter. As I release a breath full of fear and doubt, Here I am!
I am ready to receive the promises of God over my life! I am ready to allow myself to breathe! I am ready to learn from my mistakes and to keep pressing forward every day for me! I am committed to building a tightly woven foundation of God's truth and my heart's desires.
Let’s choose to exhale on every dream and move forward on every vision that you carry in your belly… Every passion that you are almost imploding to live out. Stop holding your breath on opportunities, ideas, and visions; waiting on the perfect time or scenario. I promise I have learned in this season that as soon as you choose to put one foot in front of the other, God will meet you right where you are and will do the rest!
Let’s Breathe in life… It’s time. INHALE… Go ahead; Dream, Imagine, Think, Try, Desire… Now EXHALE...Live, Do, Push forward, Make mistakes, and Try again. We can do this! We can BREATHE!
